Emotions

So I am taking out more time to contribute to Da Lab. I mean DAMN… I have been gone for quite a bit. So much is happening in my life, I am getting a tad dizzy! So… basically me and my “EX” got back together. I initiated the reunion, now I am feeling a tad “weird” about the whole situation.

Let me first state, that there is nothing wrong with him. He is the most adorable person ever, and just plain out “him”. I have no complaints with people who are free to be themselves. We have such a connection, I am just not sure that we want the same things out of life. I think that both of us are extremely happy with who we are and have a HUGE affinity for each other. There are just certain thing that are EXTREMELY important to me, that doesn’t exactly top his prority list.

Let’s See…

1. Spirituality is of EXTREME importance and I want to share mine with my whole family. I want us ALL to be involved in church and incorporate God openly into our everyday life. (His “spirituality” view is more individualistic- which is fine… just not for me in the long run)

2. Commitment is a MUST… the fact of the matter is I want to get married and I want to have a family… NOW, I am not too keen on being a permanent girlfriend, I am a grown woman with a young child. (He really doesn’t want a “life” commitment… he is perfectly content with loving and caring for the person he is with from a distance. He views forever as a long time)

3. Being Pampered… ok…ok… I know this isn’t a must but it is important to me, and I am not ashamed to say it. I want some one who will take care of me mentally, emotionally, and financially. Don’t get it twisted… I am not a “gold digger” I have been on my grind for the last almost six years handling my business for my son. I have currently started to work on me, ensuring an AWESOME future for myself. I just want to be put in a position where I am with someone who adores me enough to spoil me (and I will “take care” of him too). (He believes in every person for themselves unless you are a blood relative- don’t get it twisted, he does have my back when I absolutely need him and I am grateful for that- I just personally feel “weird” at the thought of him “pampering” me, because I know it is not something that he is comfortable doing)

Dissection:
I guess those would have to be the main issues going on with me (and my relationship) currently. I am not sure if I rushed in too fast or not. I just missed my best friend. It’s just that when we were apart I found out some more things that were very important to me. I am giving this my best shot with no regrets. I am living each day as it comes and I am continuing to work on not worrying about the future.

It’s all in God’s hands. I promise I’m not crazy ya’ll! Just figuring it all out!

The End.

~emotionsmakeyoucrysometimes~